Wine is Fine but Whiskey is Quicker...

I like to pretend I am alone .completely alone may be post apocalypse or plague whatever no one left to act normal for.. no need to hide who I really am...ah! It would be freeing

sometimes I wonder what it'd be like for every thing inside me which is denied and unknown to be reviled...but ill never know, I live my life in hiding my survival depends on it.. All along

I find people around me are all making some kind of connection like friendship or romance but human bonds always make a messy complications.. Commitment sharing...caring. Beside if I let somebody that close ... they'd see who I really am.. . None of us are who we appear to be on the outside.. But we must maintain appearances to survive..

The willful taking of one's own life...drags you away from yourself, you loose you and then you are forever looking and searching for company to keep...desperate to feel something... anything and in the process getting fucked even more
I thought this was a game my alter ego and I were playing but relationship change evolves and this one is getting deep… I realize now.. that my days are numbered and I better make the most of it...score one for the little wooden boy

(Its heavy…. it will make sense.)

" 'Tis love-'tis love that nukes the world go round!"

Pallet of Pain

I often see the burning moon,melting from the sky
I often see the trees dancing in the deserts
I often see them crying voicelessly infront of their graves
Today i am crazy, my eyes are closed
I see the blue blood dropping on the black soil
I get a new color in my life,
By mixing the balack of the soil, with the blue of my blood

Sea green, Sea Blue

I love her and i know she loves me too.. then why does she still hold on to him and her fucked up relationship.. she was mine one.. i had a chance and i belew it up.. now she goes on living ..and so do i.. she now drowns in the sea of her own tears and i.. drown deep in the sea of pussy and weed. None is happy... her eyes sparkele every time she sees me.. wanting to say save me..mine wanting to tell her, help me.. but then i guess we have moved way too far to return back to each other...so close yet too far

Believe ME...Fucking Believe Me

We should only be friends... i like it that way!!

Oh No i think i like you...dont you think we should go out...

I am going away..dont know if ill be back soon...but who says long distance doesnt work, hell we will make it work, you and me, we will make it work.

Oops sorry it didnt work..i loved you ...really loved you but my love faded away in 8 months...why ...cause you didnt call enough...and yah did i mention...i have a tiny winy crush on some one...but no its not bacause of that i am breaking up with you..believe me, hope you understand.

I can see..that how much you have tried to win me back to make things work..but i just turned my blind eye to it...please forgive me...i am sorry...we will remain good friends right?

Oh welcome to my city... have dinner with me... oh did i tell you i am dating someone...the same guy who i had a tiny winy crush on...and dont worry we will still be good frineds wont we?

Oops!! sorry that we kissed... oh again!!! oops once more... hey i am not in love with you... ooops there we go again!!! i am certain i am not in love with you...

How can i love you when i am so kneck deep in love with him.
You wanna walk away to end it...good i am not gonna stop you..its for your own good BELIEVE ME!!

NO I DONT WANNA EVER SEE OR TALK TO YOU ANY MORE.. I DONT CARE IF YOU ARE ALONE...IN THIS ALIEN CITY.. YOU WILL FIND YOUR WAY AROUND.BELIEVE ME... BUT I DONT WANNA SEE YOU EVER...I STILL CARE FOR YOU ... YOU KNOW THAT DONT YOU??? BELIEVE ME!!

Ummmm

We Kissed....she melted...mop please!!!

Heaven's a Lie

Faith is a Substance of things hoped for...evidence of things not seen.