Sea green, Sea Blue

I love her and i know she loves me too.. then why does she still hold on to him and her fucked up relationship.. she was mine one.. i had a chance and i belew it up.. now she goes on living ..and so do i.. she now drowns in the sea of her own tears and i.. drown deep in the sea of pussy and weed. None is happy... her eyes sparkele every time she sees me.. wanting to say save me..mine wanting to tell her, help me.. but then i guess we have moved way too far to return back to each other...so close yet too far