Tuesday, August 10, 2010

UNSPOKEN

(Disclaimer:This story is a work of fiction.. and bares no resemblance to any body living or dead)


K: " Hey i am sorry .. but are you there??"

(Pause)

A: " Yup"

K: " I know all the things about us not talking any more and stuff but..."

A: " Go on"

K: " Did yo go for it? How was "Her" wedding?"

A: " It was Lovely ... i wouldnt miss it for the world, are you in " Her" friend list...ill soon post some pictures there... is that ok,"

K: "that will be great... thanks...i wanted to come ... but... you know....?"

A: " i know ... "

(Pause)

A: " Hey, Heard you are working for NDTV now... congratulation.. must be swell"

K: " Yah NDTV Imagine ... do yo know, i am officially a director now..." ( !!!! )

A: " Ahhh nice... congrats Oh i am a news reader for 5 Metro... Should start sometime in March...

K: (We were suppose to be together in this...weren’t we ' A...') Pause... "ahhh nice... congratulations.. We both achieved what we set out for... a promise made to each other one sunny afternoon in college... is finally realized" (
(But Of corse we forgot all other promises we made to each other didn’t we... my love... ) Damn neat will see you on tv.. soon... wont i...??"

A: "Hopefully.. but i am trying to see if i can make it to NDTV here or in Delhi.. "

K: (She still wont ask for my help... ahhh glad few things haven’t changed)..." You are not trying.. Bombay??"

A: No not Bombay...dont like the place...

K: Is it the place or... Don’t worry i wont bump into you???

A: " LOL, aint my worry... will sock you if i see you!!!"

K: " Why would you,,, what wrong did i do you now??"

A: " Coz id feel like... coz its you and me... if i don’t sock you... you'd somehow make me cry..."

(Pause)

K : " I don’t make you cry... i never did" ( and how about the time,... when i cried... silently.... how about all those times.. when i howled voicelessly.)

(Pause)

A: "Sure you don’t... ne ways id love to stay and talk but...but i cant"

K: ( i knew sooner or later you'd say it... must be brave... show her i am happy now... show her i am unfazed... hell its been 5 years since... )... " yah i understand" ( No i dont... i never did...)


A: "Sorry 'K' "

K: " Later..." (ooops!!)

A: " Not later as well 'K' "

K: ( I don’t care ... i don’t... Fuck... i still lose my sensibilities in-front of her.. she won again!!!. ) As in yah... i got that...

A: " I cant have us talking... hope you understand"

K: ( No i dont .. i never did) " Like i told you i dont care

A: " I cant say much....

K: " i just wanted to know abt the wedding so i pinged
i don’t wanna know.. i am not asking" (Give me a reason...for fucks sake... dont you think i deserve to know... at least this time)

A: "but u know me enough to understand what im not saying"

K: " Not really.. but its ok... i don’t care" (I thought i did... but, perhaps i could never understand you... perhaps you never understood me)

A: " Sorry then,,, may be someday.. try not to hate me and someday..."

K: ( How could i hate you.. i never did.. not for a minute.. how can i ever) "we don’t sock each other when we meet.. that’s good enough for me...why u being sorry...i understand...and i don’t hate you"

A: " lol... I aint.. been sorry I’m sayn I’m sorry for cutn the conversation shot now
its pretty childish but i cant help it"

K: ( How does your own foot taste in your mouth you dimwit...) " I said i understand"

A:" maybe someday ill contact u my self... and see if you are willing to be socked ... till then ta... "

K: (Just let me be... please let me be... its enough now) " Have a good life A...may you get all that you wish for...

A: lol hopefully

K: Adios.. it was nice knowing you

A: You az well.. K take care

K: “thanks TC"

A: "aint been a psudo

K: " go now" (please stay for a a minute more.. for a second more.. its a request.. please stay)

A: " sty.. bub bye.. good night ta"

K: " I think after all these years.. i still..."
(FUCK...)


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(He stared blankly at the screen... His Speakers screamed..." jala hai jizm jaha, to dil bhi jal gaya hoga....khuredate ho ab jo raakh justajoo kya hai....." He looked at her picture for one last time.. and pressed the delete button... end?... he is scared not... )


2 comments:

zephyr said...

fantastic. just fantastic.

Misaal Shah said...

Gulzar's poem does relate to you.

Dard kuch der hi rehta hai.