I'm Corinthian light
A snake in flowers by night
The last temptation of christ
Evil in mortal.
Queen of winter on throne
The murduress lurked in vulger caresses
vestal masturbation
(purity) overthrown!!
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Sunday, December 4, 2011
Freak and the Star
The Freak takes the star off his roof, dismantles the blinding light... its time for supernova, the fire moved on
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
UNSPOKEN
(Disclaimer:This story is a work of fiction.. and bares no resemblance to any body living or dead)
K: " Hey i am sorry .. but are you there??"
(Pause)
A: " Yup"
K: " I know all the things about us not talking any more and stuff but..."
A: " Go on"
K: " Did yo go for it? How was "Her" wedding?"
A: " It was Lovely ... i wouldnt miss it for the world, are you in " Her" friend list...ill soon post some pictures there... is that ok,"
K: "that will be great... thanks...i wanted to come ... but... you know....?"
A: " i know ... "
(Pause)
A: " Hey, Heard you are working for NDTV now... congratulation.. must be swell"
K: " Yah NDTV Imagine ... do yo know, i am officially a director now..." ( !!!! )
A: " Ahhh nice... congrats Oh i am a news reader for 5 Metro... Should start sometime in March...
K: (We were suppose to be together in this...weren’t we ' A...') Pause... "ahhh nice... congratulations.. We both achieved what we set out for... a promise made to each other one sunny afternoon in college... is finally realized" (
(But Of corse we forgot all other promises we made to each other didn’t we... my love... ) Damn neat will see you on tv.. soon... wont i...??"
A: "Hopefully.. but i am trying to see if i can make it to NDTV here or in Delhi.. "
K: (She still wont ask for my help... ahhh glad few things haven’t changed)..." You are not trying.. Bombay??"
A: No not Bombay...dont like the place...
K: Is it the place or... Don’t worry i wont bump into you???
A: " LOL, aint my worry... will sock you if i see you!!!"
K: " Why would you,,, what wrong did i do you now??"
A: " Coz id feel like... coz its you and me... if i don’t sock you... you'd somehow make me cry..."
(Pause)
K : " I don’t make you cry... i never did" ( and how about the time,... when i cried... silently.... how about all those times.. when i howled voicelessly.)
(Pause)
A: "Sure you don’t... ne ways id love to stay and talk but...but i cant"
K: ( i knew sooner or later you'd say it... must be brave... show her i am happy now... show her i am unfazed... hell its been 5 years since... )... " yah i understand" ( No i dont... i never did...)
A: "Sorry 'K' "
K: " Later..." (ooops!!)
A: " Not later as well 'K' "
K: ( I don’t care ... i don’t... Fuck... i still lose my sensibilities in-front of her.. she won again!!!. ) As in yah... i got that...
A: " I cant have us talking... hope you understand"
K: ( No i dont .. i never did) " Like i told you i dont care
A: " I cant say much....
K: " i just wanted to know abt the wedding so i pinged
i don’t wanna know.. i am not asking" (Give me a reason...for fucks sake... dont you think i deserve to know... at least this time)
A: "but u know me enough to understand what im not saying"
K: " Not really.. but its ok... i don’t care" (I thought i did... but, perhaps i could never understand you... perhaps you never understood me)
A: " Sorry then,,, may be someday.. try not to hate me and someday..."
K: ( How could i hate you.. i never did.. not for a minute.. how can i ever) "we don’t sock each other when we meet.. that’s good enough for me...why u being sorry...i understand...and i don’t hate you"
A: " lol... I aint.. been sorry I’m sayn I’m sorry for cutn the conversation shot now
its pretty childish but i cant help it"
K: ( How does your own foot taste in your mouth you dimwit...) " I said i understand"
A:" maybe someday ill contact u my self... and see if you are willing to be socked ... till then ta... "
K: (Just let me be... please let me be... its enough now) " Have a good life A...may you get all that you wish for...
A: lol hopefully
K: Adios.. it was nice knowing you
A: You az well.. K take care
K: “thanks TC"
A: "aint been a psudo
K: " go now" (please stay for a a minute more.. for a second more.. its a request.. please stay)
A: " sty.. bub bye.. good night ta"
K: " I think after all these years.. i still..."
(FUCK...)
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(He stared blankly at the screen... His Speakers screamed..." jala hai jizm jaha, to dil bhi jal gaya hoga....khuredate ho ab jo raakh justajoo kya hai....." He looked at her picture for one last time.. and pressed the delete button... end?... he is scared not... )
K: " Hey i am sorry .. but are you there??"
(Pause)
A: " Yup"
K: " I know all the things about us not talking any more and stuff but..."
A: " Go on"
K: " Did yo go for it? How was "Her" wedding?"
A: " It was Lovely ... i wouldnt miss it for the world, are you in " Her" friend list...ill soon post some pictures there... is that ok,"
K: "that will be great... thanks...i wanted to come ... but... you know....?"
A: " i know ... "
(Pause)
A: " Hey, Heard you are working for NDTV now... congratulation.. must be swell"
K: " Yah NDTV Imagine ... do yo know, i am officially a director now..." ( !!!! )
A: " Ahhh nice... congrats Oh i am a news reader for 5 Metro... Should start sometime in March...
K: (We were suppose to be together in this...weren’t we ' A...') Pause... "ahhh nice... congratulations.. We both achieved what we set out for... a promise made to each other one sunny afternoon in college... is finally realized" (
(But Of corse we forgot all other promises we made to each other didn’t we... my love... ) Damn neat will see you on tv.. soon... wont i...??"
A: "Hopefully.. but i am trying to see if i can make it to NDTV here or in Delhi.. "
K: (She still wont ask for my help... ahhh glad few things haven’t changed)..." You are not trying.. Bombay??"
A: No not Bombay...dont like the place...
K: Is it the place or... Don’t worry i wont bump into you???
A: " LOL, aint my worry... will sock you if i see you!!!"
K: " Why would you,,, what wrong did i do you now??"
A: " Coz id feel like... coz its you and me... if i don’t sock you... you'd somehow make me cry..."
(Pause)
K : " I don’t make you cry... i never did" ( and how about the time,... when i cried... silently.... how about all those times.. when i howled voicelessly.)
(Pause)
A: "Sure you don’t... ne ways id love to stay and talk but...but i cant"
K: ( i knew sooner or later you'd say it... must be brave... show her i am happy now... show her i am unfazed... hell its been 5 years since... )... " yah i understand" ( No i dont... i never did...)
A: "Sorry 'K' "
K: " Later..." (ooops!!)
A: " Not later as well 'K' "
K: ( I don’t care ... i don’t... Fuck... i still lose my sensibilities in-front of her.. she won again!!!. ) As in yah... i got that...
A: " I cant have us talking... hope you understand"
K: ( No i dont .. i never did) " Like i told you i dont care
A: " I cant say much....
K: " i just wanted to know abt the wedding so i pinged
i don’t wanna know.. i am not asking" (Give me a reason...for fucks sake... dont you think i deserve to know... at least this time)
A: "but u know me enough to understand what im not saying"
K: " Not really.. but its ok... i don’t care" (I thought i did... but, perhaps i could never understand you... perhaps you never understood me)
A: " Sorry then,,, may be someday.. try not to hate me and someday..."
K: ( How could i hate you.. i never did.. not for a minute.. how can i ever) "we don’t sock each other when we meet.. that’s good enough for me...why u being sorry...i understand...and i don’t hate you"
A: " lol... I aint.. been sorry I’m sayn I’m sorry for cutn the conversation shot now
its pretty childish but i cant help it"
K: ( How does your own foot taste in your mouth you dimwit...) " I said i understand"
A:" maybe someday ill contact u my self... and see if you are willing to be socked ... till then ta... "
K: (Just let me be... please let me be... its enough now) " Have a good life A...may you get all that you wish for...
A: lol hopefully
K: Adios.. it was nice knowing you
A: You az well.. K take care
K: “thanks TC"
A: "aint been a psudo
K: " go now" (please stay for a a minute more.. for a second more.. its a request.. please stay)
A: " sty.. bub bye.. good night ta"
K: " I think after all these years.. i still..."
(FUCK...)
A appears to be offline
He or she will receive your messages after signing in.
(He stared blankly at the screen... His Speakers screamed..." jala hai jizm jaha, to dil bhi jal gaya hoga....khuredate ho ab jo raakh justajoo kya hai....." He looked at her picture for one last time.. and pressed the delete button... end?... he is scared not... )
Monday, November 3, 2008
Wine is Fine but Whiskey is Quicker...
I like to pretend I am alone .completely alone may be post apocalypse or plague whatever no one left to act normal for.. no need to hide who I really am...ah! It would be freeing
sometimes I wonder what it'd be like for every thing inside me which is denied and unknown to be reviled...but ill never know, I live my life in hiding my survival depends on it.. All along
I find people around me are all making some kind of connection like friendship or romance but human bonds always make a messy complications.. Commitment sharing...caring. Beside if I let somebody that close ... they'd see who I really am.. . None of us are who we appear to be on the outside.. But we must maintain appearances to survive..
The willful taking of one's own life...drags you away from yourself, you loose you and then you are forever looking and searching for company to keep...desperate to feel something... anything and in the process getting fucked even more
I thought this was a game my alter ego and I were playing but relationship change evolves and this one is getting deep… I realize now.. that my days are numbered and I better make the most of it...score one for the little wooden boy
(Its heavy…. it will make sense.)
sometimes I wonder what it'd be like for every thing inside me which is denied and unknown to be reviled...but ill never know, I live my life in hiding my survival depends on it.. All along
I find people around me are all making some kind of connection like friendship or romance but human bonds always make a messy complications.. Commitment sharing...caring. Beside if I let somebody that close ... they'd see who I really am.. . None of us are who we appear to be on the outside.. But we must maintain appearances to survive..
The willful taking of one's own life...drags you away from yourself, you loose you and then you are forever looking and searching for company to keep...desperate to feel something... anything and in the process getting fucked even more
I thought this was a game my alter ego and I were playing but relationship change evolves and this one is getting deep… I realize now.. that my days are numbered and I better make the most of it...score one for the little wooden boy
(Its heavy…. it will make sense.)
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Pallet of Pain
I often see the burning moon,melting from the sky
I often see the trees dancing in the deserts
I often see them crying voicelessly infront of their graves
Today i am crazy, my eyes are closed
I see the blue blood dropping on the black soil
I get a new color in my life,
By mixing the balack of the soil, with the blue of my blood
I often see the trees dancing in the deserts
I often see them crying voicelessly infront of their graves
Today i am crazy, my eyes are closed
I see the blue blood dropping on the black soil
I get a new color in my life,
By mixing the balack of the soil, with the blue of my blood
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Sea green, Sea Blue
I love her and i know she loves me too.. then why does she still hold on to him and her fucked up relationship.. she was mine one.. i had a chance and i belew it up.. now she goes on living ..and so do i.. she now drowns in the sea of her own tears and i.. drown deep in the sea of pussy and weed. None is happy... her eyes sparkele every time she sees me.. wanting to say save me..mine wanting to tell her, help me.. but then i guess we have moved way too far to return back to each other...so close yet too far
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